What are you waiting on?

I am a procrastinator. An organized procrastinator, but a procrastinator none the less. But I am also a saved child of God (only by his grace). A lot of things in my life, I put off til the last minute. And it is often a very big stress-er for me and most definitely leads me to worry and sin. I say all this to lead you into whats fluttering in my mind tonight......WAITING. Not just waiting to do everyday tasks, but waiting to do what the Lord has called me to do!

-As a teenager, I knew God was calling me to Him, but I WAITED. I told myself that I was fine the way I was.. (LOST), I was overrun with pride, and I repeatedly waited and put dealing with my salvation off until I was completely dead with worry and brokenness inside.

-As a college student, I knew God was calling me to grow in my relationship with Him, to show others His love and mercy, to STAND OUT,  but again I often WAITED. I told myself, " I'm in college, I'm young, I'm only at this stage of life once, all that other can wait.  I want to have 'fun' . It can wait til I'm married and being serious, etc."

-As a newly married woman, I have lately found myself being called to be a better Godly wife, to show love to my husband even when I am stressed, mad, and just want to be alone, also, being called to be in HIS WORD everyday no matter my circumstances, and being called to SERVE. But once again, thoughts of WAITING flutter in- "You're in graduate school, Sam, you'll have time to do all that consistently when you graduate, and you can focus on all that when you become a mom, and when you have a regular hours job, etc."

Why did/do I keep waiting? Why do we all keep waiting? The fact is all of those are excuses. They are darkness seeping into my life to keep me away from loving, serving, and worshiping.

 17 Now this I say and testify in the Lord, that you must no longer walk as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their minds. 18 They are darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, due to their hardness of heart. 19 They have become callous and have given themselves up to sensuality, greedy to practice every kind of impurity. 20 But that is not the way you learned Christ!— 21 assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, 22 to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, 23 and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, 24 and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.  Ephesians 4:17-24

After years of waiting and worrying, God has definitely shown me that going forward with his plan for my life and his timing for what I am being called to do are far more rewarding than anything I could have imagined. There is great joy and peace when you stop saying "not now, I'll do that later". But it is so difficult to keep that mind set every day. 

Please pray that God will continue to soften my heart, and soften loved ones around me who may be waiting and worrying.... Pray that He will continue to RENEW me and REVEAL His plan for my life!

WHAT IS GOD CALLING YOU TO DO?
If you are WAITING to take action, please don't. Join me in making a change. There is no time but the present to make a change. Whatever it may be. Maybe you were like me as a teenager or college student, or maybe something else is keeping you from making an IMMEDIATE change to grow in your walk with God.. Dont let it. The joy that comes from Christ is far more special than any other circumstance or time of life that you are in.

-Sam